Some of my followers may have noticed that I have not been very timely with my postings, lately. I strongly believe in having a schedule and staying on track. I am a list maker and pride myself in being organized. My life has always been about progress and a finished product. I can push myself hard to complete a task. I am used to working alone because I am more productive that way. And although I try really hard not to overwork someone who may be helping me, they end up working way harder than they expected.
Anyway, recently, some opportunities to expand my health coaching business have come up. I am really excited about them, and I want to work towards all of them at the same time! There is a lot to do on the computer, which is very time consuming. It’s a delicate balance of health coaching, farm work, a fulltime job, and spending quality time with family.
I have a vision for what I want my life to be like in a few years. When I finally give up my job as an electronics technician, I want to be working from home as a full time health coach. I have a few years left before I will be eligible to retire with full benefits. Being able to keep my health benefits for my husband and myself makes the wait to retire worth it. We want the ability to travel throughout the United States and see how truly beautiful our country really is. Every vision of our retired years has us side by side and enjoying life. Every project that takes place here at home has a long-term viewpoint built into it. Every project is done right, done once, and will serve us when we are old and gray. So, in the meantime, I do not want to be so busy that my husband and I grow apart.
I think too often, that life in the 21st century moves too fast. Focus is too much on getting ahead. People are so busy that when they get to where they want to be, reality looks differently than their vision because they ended up leaving important people behind. That is tragic! Sometimes it is encouraging to get through a difficult time when you can tell yourself that what you must do is a means to an end. Be when the focus is too narrow, we lose sight of what is happening right next to us with those people we care most about.
My future with my husband is my future, regardless of what it looks like. The less important things are: where I live, what car I drive, the clothes in my closet, and the rings on my fingers. The most important part of my future is my relationship with my husband. When you are building your relationship with your mate, it is fun and you both are happy. That’s the best time to work towards keeping it that way. It is so very hard to rebuild a relationship after you have grown apart and developed resentment for lost years.
I realize that the next few years are going to be challenging and busy. I am on the cusp of really making a difference in a lot of people’s lives. I think God has been preparing me for this. And I believe that part of finding the balance with all that I am trying to do is not possible without me cutting myself some slack. I can really stress myself out, and be pretty hard on myself for not meeting my own deadlines. That’s an old, old habit. It’s a habit that doesn’t serve me anymore. I have finally realized that I can’t get to that picture perfect vision in my head by beating myself up for missing a few deadlines.
I have the most wonderful husband in the world, who loves me for who I am. He always encourages me, and actually helps bring out my best. He always supports my dreams because he knows they are important to me. Well, my biggest dream is be head over heels in love with him for the rest of my life. Some dreams may never become reality, but the fact is that I will someday be old and gray. I want to walk hand and hand with my husband for the rest of my life, and I want love to be the reason that I get out of bed every day.
1 Corinthians 7:14 For the believing wife brings holiness to her marriage, and the believing husband brings holiness to his marriage. Otherwise, your children would not be holy, but now they are holy.